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Thank you. Once again you have named something hugely important in my life that I had no name for. I can easily recall a perfect example from my past, when I desperately needed to experience awe. I was deeply depressed and anxious, my life was falling apart and there was nothing I could do about it. I had always felt renewed after watching a sunset into the Pacific ocean, and though we were living in Santa Cruz we couldn't see the sun setting into the ocean because there was the huge peninsula of San Francisco in the way. The nearest beach with public access is north of San Francisco by several miles, on Point Reyes. We had stumbled on McClure's beach a few years before during a family trip exploring the coast, and I knew I had to go there. I couldn't explain why, but my husband had been with me for nearly 30 years by that time, and intuitively understood my need. So off we went.

Because we took our time driving a scenic route, we almost got there too late, so the fairly long road from the nearest town to the Point and McClure's beach was fairly panicked, and I was even more anxious by the time we arrived. In time, with about 20 minutes to spare.

It had grown windy and chilled, so we ran around collecting driftwood for the fire pit. I've never seen so much driftwood on one small beach! Some the size of telephone poles - which after the sun set, we used to build a wind break.

We paused in our firewood collecting to watch the sunset. We paused everything, including thinking, and just watched in awed silence as the big yellow sun kissed the horizon. The water began reflecting a flashing yellow road from us to the sun. I idly imagined walking on it. The sky around the sun, clouds, and water burst into brilliant shades of orange, red, purple shading to Payne's Grey as it darkened, and colors like magenta and aubergine, others that even as an artist I can't name...but didn't even think to. I said nothing. I thought nothing. I felt no wind or chill. I think I heard the seabirds and the seals, but not until the sun was only a blazing sliver at the end of the glowing road. The water turned blue-green and deep slate. I think what broke my trance was the chill of my wet cheeks - but it might have been my husband handing me a glass of wine.

We lit the fire and stayed until it was fully dark. The ranger station checks the parking lot after dark, and if they don't see you heading back they'll come get you...but the trip succeeded in restoring my soul and mind, and I still return to it when I need it, even from Boston.

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